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Sign of the times?
August 21st, 2009....
Amanda crashed to her knees, her hands clutching her chest in the spot where her heart used to be. Tears, no longer noticed, rolled down her face, hitting the ground. The parched summer earth sucked them up eagerly, leaving no trace behind of them ever having been there.
She stared at nothing, struck dumb. This could not be happening she kept telling herself. She was unable to process everything that just happened. Her mind simply could not accept it. This was America....the good ‘ole U.S. of A and things like this could not happen. Events such as these happened to “other” people in “other” places. No, this couldn’t be real. She had always had vivid dreams and she almost convinced herself that this was a nightmare that she would wake up from any minute. It had to be. She tried to grasp this idea and latch onto it as a rock climber will try and grasp a passing limb in a last hope of salvation to prevent plummeting to the ground and certain death. But she knew. The rational part of her mind knew it was real.
Amanda sat there, in the middle of the yard, under the hot August sun, oblivious to time. Had anyone been there to see her, they would have thought how she looked like the last child left in a sandbox at the playground. She didn’t care. A brilliant flash of green caught her wandering gaze and she watched as the hummingbird left the pine branch and flew to the feeder by the window. On any other day it would have made her smile to see the delicate bird dipping it’s slender beak into the sweet homemade nectar. She heard the sounds of the various late summer bugs and birds. Suddenly she was furious at all of the living things around her. How dare they continue on with life as if everything was normal, she thought. Nothing was normal now. She was angry, furious in fact. Someone had to pay, someone had to be to blame! In her self righteous anger she started to rise to her feet. Suddenly a sickening wave of certainty hit her and knocked her back to the ground. She realized that she was to blame and her anger turned to self loathing. She screamed in grief and frustration and most of all, regret. She wanted a “Do-over” a “second chance” just one more chance. Her anguished cries and pleas for another chance meant nothing to the stoic trees surrounding her once loved land. Amanda sat there thinking
“If I had only made the time, things would be different now...”
One Year Earlier...... Amanda arrived at her front gate after a long day of work and was greeted by several smiling, furry faces. This was the “yard crew” for the day, and included not only her German Shepherds but several aging rescues. Almond eyes, round eyes, floppy ears or prick, it didn’t matter. When “mama” came home they all wore the same goofy, tongue hanging out the side of the mouth, expressions of joy. Amanda laughed at all the expectant little eyes as she opened the front gate. As was normal, they raced circles around the car until she opened the back door of the car. Once the door was open, bodies flew into it for the “ride” into the yard, which was only another 100 yds, but they didn’t care. She could have gotten in and drove 12 inches and they would have loved it. Such was the nature and joy of dogs.
Amanda began the nightly ritual of feeding and playing and training each of her friends. She glanced on the counter and noticed the latest Premium List, and wondered, for the third time this week, if she missed the entry closing date. She said aloud to Samson “Hey, remind me to enter the dang show later, would you?” Samson sat there and cocked his head to one side, at least pretending acknowledgment. Countless bones and toys were scattered across the living room floor. One of the dogs’ favorite human tricks was to artfully place such articles of interest directly into the walking path of the human. Apparently, as best Amanda could tell anyway, bones and toys lost their appeal once placed on the designated path. They would remain in that exact same spot as if by magnetic force. Eventually, Amanda would do “her trick” and pick up all the toys and bones and throw them again into the toy box by the T.V. As usual, the dogs would watch this, delighted to have toys in the box to once again unload. Suddenly, that bone that had laid there for a week was “new...,” now that it had been “re-born” in the box once again. Amanda shook her head and smiled, knowing that by the time she was done taking her shower, it would look as if she had never picked up the toys at all.
As Amanda showered she thought about the upcoming shows. For some reason water falling on her brain stimulated thoughts of dog shows. She laughed to herself at such a crazy idea. She thought, “Emma is ready for her last Rally leg” and “Is Rosie ready for her first time in puppy class?” “Who would be at this show?” “Should she enter just Conformation?” The last thought made her laugh again. “How fun would that be?” It’s much more exciting running from building to building ring steward to ring steward, calculating how many dogs ahead or behind, etc, etc. How boring it would be just to stand around and wait! Later that evening, dogs fed, training sessions completed, dogs crated or sleeping in their designated places around the house, Amanda turned on the computer. As usual, dozens of emails were in her inbox. She scanned the subject lines, her finger hovering over the “delete” key. She opened the latest list brags and litter announcements. She deleted the ones that said “BSL...please help.. blah blah...” In the back of her mind she wondered why all of a sudden there seemed to be so many more of these type emails. They were so cumbersome and difficult to read through. Every once in a while, when it was a “slow” email day, she would open on of the breed specific legislation emails. “Please help fight HB xxxx” or “Mandatory Spay/Neuter Bill strikes...so and so” The email would include a copy of the proposed legislation, followed by a list of people to call or write, or an email petition to sign. It was not that Amanda didn’t care about such things. She really did. Amanda knew that something needed to be done to counter the ever increasing wave of animal activists. She did care about those people in California or Massachusetts or Pennsylvania. It was just that she had so much to do and those places were so far away from her quiet little town. These things only affected people in the big cities, people who lived in suburban towns with manicured lawns. This type of legislation didn’t come to small country towns. Still it bothered Amanda and she meant to write a letter to that Congressman about it. She meant to track that bill to see what happened. She meant to make a donation to that new organization that was fighting such things. She’d do it when she had the time. In between the dog shows, when it wasn’t so busy. Maybe she would have time next week to write that letter or to become a member of that organization. She would do it. But first she had to enter that upcoming show and that would cost her money so she just couldn’t make that donation this time. Maybe next paycheck. She got lost in the world of cyberspace and more exciting things like who had new litters and who’s dog just finished their championship. As she answered emails, the BSL email was already becoming a shadow on her memory, fading into non-existence like all those emails she had read before, like a dream fades from the dreamer’s mind upon waking. Time is life’s most elusive creature to harness. It often avoids capture, slipping just beyond the reach of those who try to catch it. Those people lucky enough to capture time, usually don’t appreciate how valuable it is and it sits there collecting dust. And once time is gone, there is no getting it back. And so it was with Amanda. Time slipped away. Summer turned to fall and fall turned to winter. Winter was chased away by Spring and somehow made it back to summer. Life went on as usual, as it always had, and as she assumed it always would.
The present day... Amanda shook her head, coming back to reality. Her new reality. She was off this particular day and it had begun as such a nice day. Not too hot, with a slight breeze in the air. The dogs had gotten her up at 6:30 A.M. like clockwork..., she never could teach them about days off, and she was just finishing up the morning routine. She was thinking about who she was going to use as a stud for one of her girls that was showing signs of coming into heat. She was not in the yard when the vehicles pulled up to the gate, but as they always did, the dogs let her know someone was there. She poked her head out the door and saw the Sheriffs patrol car and a white, unmarked van. When Amanda stepped into the yard, the Sheriff stepped out of his car with a grim look on his face that instantly worried her. She just didn’t know why and could not imagine the reason for the visit or who was in the white van. Amanda smiled and made the customary exchanges of small town, country living. The Sheriff did the same, it was ingrained in his very being and automatic. But the look never left his face. He said he had some bad news and produced some papers. Amanda took the papers but did not understand what they meant...more specifically what they meant to her.
“What is this about?” she asked.
“I’m sorry Amanda, I really am, but there’s been a new law, a new ordinance..” he trailed off, unable to continue, and looked over his shoulder at the white van with obvious distaste. Her stomach clenched like the jaws of an alligator on prey and her heart began to pound.
“Didn’t you see the local paper? Didn’t you attend the meetings at the school?” he asked. “What? No. I have been so busy with work and the shows and training, and I don’t get the local paper.”
The Sheriff looked down, dreading what he was now obligated by law to tell her. “Well Amanda, you know I’ve known you for what, 15 years now? You know I don’t want to do this. I know you are not a problem. You are a responsible member of the community,” he said.
All the color had drained from Amanda’s face. She had to force the words out of her mouth. Her words were barely audible. “What...what is the new law?”
“No person is allowed to have more than three dogs and they must be spayed or neutered” he said. “But I am a breeder, I. . . I have papers,” she stammered “There has to be an exception.”
There were exceptions. The new law said that all breeders must be registered with the state, and a fee per dog had to be paid. Amanda told him she’d pay the fee and she would register, no matter what the cost, she would get the money, she would do it this very minute, the sheriff could take her there now to do it. The Sheriff wiped his brow and angrily spat on the ground in the direction of the white van that Amanda now guessed contained cages.
“I’m sorry Amanda, but the registration and appropriate fee had to have been completed before this date.” “I thought you knew, that someone would have told you.” he added in an apologetic voice. “I have to take your dogs. You can keep three if they are fixed.”
No. No....NO! She looked around at each of her dogs, her loves, her lifelong dream and passion. Each of them were special, each of them with their own character and personality. There had to be a loophole, had to be a way out of this. How could she choose? These were her children, her dearly loved and cared for children!
“Well, I refuse! I won’t let you! I won’t! She screamed at him, all sense of rational thought gone.
“Now Amanda, don’t make this any harder. If you refuse, you will be arrested and charged with several new codes. If you are arrested and charged, those people will claim you can’t care for the three dogs you are allowed to keep and those will be taken too.”
“What will happen to my children.” She asked with fear and dread.
“I think you know the answer to that, don’t make me say it.” he said. “They are now considered unregistered animals and as such can’t be registered since they are all over 8 weeks old.”
He couldn’t look at her as he began the next sentence. “There’s a man in the back of the van...”
“No, don’t say it...” she begged. She cried and she pleaded with all her heart.
“If you want, I will order them to let you hold each one as it’s done as opposed to doing it without you.”
She could not answer, she just nodded her head yes. Her precious children, most of whom she had brought into this world. She wanted them to be held and loved by her until the end.
Amanda does not know how long it took. She does not know how she made the agonizing decision of her three to keep. A piece of her died with each one of her children in the back of the white van, this no longer pleasant day.
Amanda continued to sit in the middle of the yard on that August day, surrounded by silence and her land very empty now. She sat there and thought “If only I had made the time...” The irony of it all was that now, now that it no longer mattered....she had all the time in the world now.
Author’s note: The story you just read is fiction. At least, to the best of my knowledge, at the time of writing, it is. As I tried to think of a story for this months edition, I could not get the thought of the animal activists and legislation off my mind, fueled by the images of abandoned animals to sad music from the latest commercials. I wanted to write about legislation. I feel in the core of my being, a sense of urgency, about such topics, a sense of an approaching apex. I tried unsuccessfully on several occasions, to write in a different style...one of the “reporter” style...articles....but how effective would it have been? I asked myself the question. “Why are they winning, these activists?” The answer? It was staring at me...compelling stories, sad images, catchy tunes. These things evoke emotions from people. You don’t see PETA flashing pages and pages of complicated text of legislation in front of people. Why? It’s boring, people will not connect with it. People will turn a deaf ear and eye to it. I knew what I had to try and do. The old way is not working. It is a new year and a new beginning. A new way of thinking and a new approach to an old problem was my solution. As this story came alive, I found myself trembling, on the verge of tears, as I connected with the story that I knew was not real, at least not yet. Not real, but believable enough that it could be with very little effort. If you the reader, found yourself relating to the character, better yet, became a version of the character, then just maybe I was successful in conveying a need to embrace a new way of thinking and solving these issues that are bound to affect us eventually.
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